Perils and Pleasures Continued #3 O Part 2:

To get the most from these correspondence, I would start with part #1, #2 and then this:

After the way I lost Petra, her repeated flakey behavior of not writing for days one week and again once I said I didn't know how I would afford to travel to her nor did I think a marriage proposal was appropriate for our first meeting, I suspected that her and a scamming business were a very strong probability.  Although I kept reminding myself not to get in too deep, I just could not resist the passionate words and strange grammar that made this all the more believable.  In their defense, when I began studying Russian language, I discovered they either don't use pronouns or must use them differently.

Hello , my love! You are to me the most wonderful man . I am thankful for the fact that she gave me you. Thank you for your letters. They got me warm as the sun's rays . Along with your letters you send me a piece of his soul, and they make me happy .

You wrote to me that he was surprised by the fact that I never brought coffee in bed . In Russia there are very few romantic guys. You asked the name of my town , as you can not restore the previous letter. I wrote to you that I live in a city that is called Yelabuga. You also asked me to call my name. Sorry , but my mom asked me to not give personal information on the Internet. You asked me if I played tennis. No I've never played this game. I agree with you that made ??their own hands is much more secure than the one purchased. But I have not thought about what I would do in your country , when I get there . I do not have any documents that would be to visit your country . But I will try to learn about it in the near future . I think that it is ready to plan our meeting with you . I've got news . I think she'll like it. I can take a vacation at any time , since I did not take it for two years.

When my poor relations were finished , my heart was completely broken, even now when I remember about what I had a relationship , it makes me sick. My heart aches from what came to me as a rag. And I'm sick of it . From the moment I am very much disappointed in men from Russia, and I did not want any public relations , to be honest, I was hurt so much that at one point I thought that I'm done with my life , even now, I am writing this in my everything fell lumpy throat . And I'm not much difficult.

My mom and my best friend helped me to start life anew . They made ??me feel that what I have. After some time has passed , I have seen many Russian men, but all of them were bad thoughts . And I did not want to have anything to do with them. Because I'm very upset at them, then I heard about online dating . And one friend just told me to use the Internet to find a man . And it seemed to me it's tempting . And then I decided to go online to get acquainted . Then I met you , from the very beginning , when we spoke , I had no clear sense , and was not even a lot of fear , not because I'm afraid of you . And because that I have in my life when not talking with a man abroad , and I am very worried when I read your first letter , and when you wrote your letter. Now I can not live without your letters , your gentle words , in the truest sense of the word. Because I realize that I am in love with you. And this strange feeling was the feeling of love and affection for you. I've never thought that a man can fall in love through letters . But it happened , you know , I fell in love with you. I love you with all my soul. My heart belongs only to you . And I ask you to keep my heart carefully and accurately . Do not hurt me . Now I understand that each of your letter , it is the meaning of my life. I finally made ??sense of that for which I have lived so many years since my birth until the present day. You - the meaning of my life. Before each of your letter gave me a sense of what I live for . And now your letters give me such a sense . Your letters give me new strength to live for some time. You know , now I just live by your letters. When I see your letter , I am very much happy. You are a wonderful man . You are my ideal. And I do not want to lose you . I very much hope that we will not leave each other ever. And we will continue to fight with all that stand between us, and we will break all barriers . We will be going to the same destination . Meeting - that's my goal . What is your goal?

I finish my letter . I hope that soon I will see again your letter. Write me as soon as possible . I 'll miss you and wait for your letter.

your Olga

Olga,

I love that you answer so many questions so that I may feel as if I know you better.  I promise I will never disrespect the decisions of your mother, so you will be Olga_____? until we meet and then perhaps I will know the full name of my love. You did not answer what you like to do in your spare time, so that I can ensure you don't get bored.

I hope you can have an open mind about learning tennis.  I have two racquets and I bet I can teach you how to hit the ball in about 10 minutes.  It is great exercise and I have had many hours of fun playing over the years.  My nephew William Waidelich plays tennis well and has competed for his school.  His father, my brother in law and I have played countless games of tennis over the years and also many games of golf.  I quit playing golf in 2008 because it is expensive and I have cut all unnecessary expenses from my life until I get a good job and address my debts.

Thank-you for beginning to find the information about government permission to visit me.  I wish for you to be with me, this above all things.

I will have to leave for school, one more week and then I find out if I will get help to find a job or more school to get a better job.  Yesterday was testing.  Reading, reading graphs and tables, and mathematics.  I think I did well on reading and math, the other was very difficult in the end with multiple graphs and tables to interpret for each answer.

Do you know yet that I love you and will not hurt you?  Do you know yet that my love is as true as anything I've ever believed in?  Do you understand that I feel just as vulnerable (exposed to the possibility of injury) as you?  We have both been hurt, seriously hurt by previous relationships yet it is only through taking this leap of faith that we hold the chance of happiness most people will never have.  I think most people are too afraid to take such a risk, and they will never get such a prize as we will get.  Have faith in me please.  I have faith in you, but like you my doubts can not always easily be conquered.

Above all I have faith in love.  Love can happen.  A love like ours can be true and honest and more valuable that all the money, gold, land... anything.

I love you Olga ___?

Love,

Dave.

Olga,

Thank-you for the picture.  Your eyes are the most amazing shade of blue.

Dave.

Olga,

I talked about you with my father tonite.  He knows I am happy and excited that you will come some day soon (I hope) to meet me.  

I said to my father that I was unsure.  I do not know how many days I should ask you to come.  I want you to be happy here and to see the Grand Canyon, one of the 7 wonders of the world.  The key is I want you to be happy. If you are enjoying yourself, then one, two or three weeks may still have us crying at the airport when you leave that the time went too fast.  My father said I should invite you for a month or two.  He said, "She will spend so much money to come to see you.  To get good value for the money spent for travel she should stay as long as she can." 

We have plenty of food and there is enough money for gasoline to see the wonders of Arizona, meet my two older sisters and their families.  I think you would not need to budget money for anything but your travel to and back from Arizona. 

My younger sister lives in New York State which is very far and we could not visit her.  Someday if you lived with me as my wife this would be possible in the years to come.

I wish to warn you of our small townhouse.  It is small and 50 years old.  Your clothes in the pictures you send me are very nice.  Will my small house and small room make you sad I wonder.

I want to have you in my arms so much it is hard to concentrate.  In school all day I find my mind going to you and then the instructor asks me a question.  "Sorry!"  I say, "I was reading in the book, what was the question?" Do you have this problem that our love makes it hard to concentrate on anything else?  I miss you though our lips have never touched.  I crave to hear your voice which I have never heard before.  So much faith I have in love for someone I have not yet met. Someone I hope very much to meet.

I have not assumed that you might just want to come and stay.  This would be acceptable for me, and I would save for a ring.  I don't mean to make you afraid.  I would never want that I make you afraid and I am not afraid of you.  You have made me not afraid of love.

So much to think about.  Such a heavy letter made of electricity which has almost no weight, electric mail, email.

I will think of you as I draw my last waking breath tonite and hope your day goes well,

Love and kisses,

Dave.

Hi, my dear Dave! How are you doing today? How did you spend your day? Tell me about it. I'm always interested to learn about the new you.

You wrote me that you want my coming to you. Also, you wrote to me that he had talked with your father, and he also wants my arrival. Dave, I really love you, and very much want to be in your arms. I wish that we were able to meet and be together. But can you take me to your house? When I arrive to you, where exactly are we going to live? I'll have to take a room in a hotel, or we will live in your house? I also ask you to tell me the nearest international airport, which is next to you, so I knew exactly where I will need to fly. I just want to ask you about whether you can meet me at your airport? Understand that I have never been outside their own country, and I do not know exactly where I will need to go to get to your house. If you do not meet me at the airport, it will be a problem for me to get to you yourself, in your country, so I do not know your city. For me it is very important, and I hope you can explain it all to me in my next letter. For me it is really important. I love you madly badly, my kitten! You're the best! You wrote me that my letter was fine, maybe it's because I'm writing it from the heart. I am pleased to know that I will never regret that I gave you my trust. You wrote to me, I learned something about the visa or passport? No, about the documents I did not recognize.

My love Dave, I'm happy again to see a letter from you. Your letters bring me joy every day. I want to again and again to get them. I want to again and again to tell you that I love you very much. I not only miss your letters. I want more. I want to be with you. I'd like to be close to you. I can not tell you my desire into words. I just love you. I love you, and I can not live without you any day. My love for you is very strong. I love you very much. All the time I think about you. I always imagine our meeting with you. I wish I could be with you. I want you to feel all my love for you. I want you to be as much like me as I love you. I think of you always. In the morning when I wake up, I think about what you wrote me a letter or not. And I want to read it soon. When I sleep, then in my dreams I wanna be with you. And in my dreams I always with you because I love you. And all my dreams - it is my great love for you. I need you. I do not want to see anyone around you. Because my heart belongs only to you. Only you can make sure that I was happy. At the same time, and I will do everything to make you happy with me. Only you are my love. All my thoughts are of you. They are just for you. All my love to you intended. I can not live without you. Because this love I can not store a. I want to share their love with you. I love only you, and only you in my heart. No one will ever be able to live in my heart. My heart was breaking out of my chest when I read your letters. I hope that we'll soon be together. I very much want this. I want you to understand me. I want you to imagine how much I love you. My heart always tells me that I should be with you. Because my heart is just broken without you. It will just die without you. Because it completely belongs to you. My love for you is true and it knows no limits. If I had wings, I would certainly arrived to you. But I'm not a bird, I can not fly. But I more than anything want to be with you. You - the most precious thing I have in this life. I can not tell you in words what is happening with me. I'm burnin 'with desire to be with you. I burn with passion for you. It's true. I want to be yours and only yours. I want to be in your hands. I want to feel your heartbeat. I want to fall into your arms. I want to drown in your eyes. You understand that? When we'll be together already? You are always in my thoughts. I'm just going crazy about you. I can not live so long. Because my love for you will not let me rest. I can not sleep because you are always with me. I can not sleep because I think about you. Thoughts come one after another, and I can not stop them. I already know how I'll be gentle with you. I think about it. I think that you too think about it. You want to meet me? You want to be in my arms? You want to kiss me? If you want it, why we're still not together? I believe that there is nothing higher than love. Love decorates the person. I want to get a kiss from you. I want to feel you next to me.

My dear, I have to finish this my letter. I really want to get a letter from you tomorrow. I miss you. I miss you. I'd give a lot for something that would be close to you. I love you. I'm waiting for your letter.

Your Olga

Olga,

Relax.  That is not easy for you or me.  Our love is impatient.  I will meet you at Sky Harbor airport in Phoenix which is an international airport.  I will bring you from the airport to my home.  You will not need a hotel.  Do not be afraid.  I have traveled by airplane many times across the world with never a problem.

Most likely you will come from a stop-over in London, England as this is a common point of departure from Eastern Europe.  You should consult an airline company for the most economical route, but you will probably fly from the nearest big airport near to Yelabuga to Moscow, then to London and from there to Phoenix and to my arms.

I sent you an internet link which should help you with the papers you will need to travel to America without legal issues.  It is my understanding you need only a visa and I am glad because getting a passport in America takes a few weeks.  I don't know how long it takes in Russia.

I see a small smile on the girl in the picture you sent me.  I see you can smile.  I shall cause you to smile that smile bigger right before I kiss your lips.  I feel you closer to me already.  Be brave my little bird.  Soon my little bird will fly to me and though you will be in a different country, you will feel as if you have come home.  My arms will feel like home.

Do not let fear delay you.  Use the link I have sent you to get information.  Information will give you wisdom and that will give you confidence.  You can do this.  You are my brave little girl.

I have to go to my last day of school.  The other students have asked that I bring my banjo.  I am scared because I have a hard time to concentrate because you are always on my mind.  Every breath you are there, every heartbeat, Olga, Olga.  Come to me my Olga.  My arms will take away your fears.

I will write again later after school.

Love,

David.

Hello Olga,

I am sorry to have to tell you this, my antivirus software discovered that my computer was infected.  I got new software and I believe my computer is virus free now, but there is the possibility that I have sent you viruses.  If this is so, I am very sorry, but I felt is is best to be honest with you even if it is bad news I may bring.

Today was my last class in employment finding assistance.  Now I can hopefully do better looking for a job.  I won't find out if I will be offered trucking or some other school until the 14th of May. It is mixed the emotion I feel. I would not be happy if you come to visit me and I have to go away every day for 9 hours to a job.  I hope you will be able to find out soon when you can come to visit me to assist my decisions in my planning of the job search.

And of course I want to meet you, hug and caress you.  I wish to see the beautiful blue of your eyes.  I wish to see a smile on your beautiful lips.  I want to take long walks and long bicycle rides.

Yesterday, when we had our lunch break from class, I walked a mile or so to the Phoenix Public Library central branch, the biggest library.  I asked the librarian if there were any books in Russian thinking the answer would be no.  But to my surprise there was a small section of books in Russian.  I said I have another question that I think I know the answer.  Are there any Russian Videos?  Not many, but yes.  There are a few Russian movies with subtitles in English, so when you get tired of hearing and reading nothing but English, you can have a break and enjoy some Russian books and movies with me.  I am so happy to be able to do this for you.  When I know you are on your way here soon, I can put a 'reserve' on these materials and they will be held just for us.

I miss you so.  How can I miss someone I have never met?  But I cannot remember ever missing someone as I do you.  I wait as patiently as I can for the day you will be in my arms and I may kiss your beautiful face.

Love,

Dave.

My dear, dear Olga,

I cannot go to bed without one last letter.  Does this show you how in love I am.  I am crazy about you.  I thought of you so many times today.  Hour after hour I have a grin on my face and you are the reason.

I went on the internet looking for information on getting an American visa in Yelabuga.  The only thing I found was an article of text saying it may be difficult.  So I went another way.  I looked for a Russia club in Phoenix.  There is one.  I have the address and I will try to visit it tomorrow and see if they know anything that will help you get a visa.  Again, I am happy that if all the American things you will face in Phoenix leave you homesick for Russia, I will be able to take you someplace where you can speak Russian with Russians and not feel so far from home. Does this help you believe how much I think about you and how much I love you?  I do love you my dear Olga.  I just had to say that one or two more times before I lie down to sleep.

Have an incredible, wonderful day my dear, good night from lonely me and the lonely moon,

Dave.

Hi, my dear Dave! I am very glad that you wrote to me . You know , it's for me a lot. I'm telling you about it every time , as soon as I see your letter, and you begin to write . How do you feel ? How is your health ? Me is all very interesting , because I love and cherish you, because you are my soul mate . I have to take care of you , because I want you to be healthy. I want you to be happy .

I'm glad that you're ready for our meeting and willing to take me in his house . I also want to thank you for what you told me about the city in which the airport is located . At work, I was talking with my friend about you and me . She's a girl , we are working with her . I told her that we want to meet . She was very happy for us . But I do not know exactly how I can come to you. My friend advised me to contact the travel agency , and learn about everything from them. Tomorrow I will try to visit the agency . When I hear all the information , then immediately everything 'll let you know my kitten .

If something happens to you , then know that I always come to you for help. Because I love you very much and do not let any illness take you away from me . Honey, how are you? I hope all is well. Dear Dave, I woke up today very sad. But I do not know why. I myself tried to answer the question , but he could not. Because it was just sadness, which often finds me. From this I have a bad mood , but then I start thinking about you , and it all goes away . You are my ray of light in the darkest place . You're my guide in life. I hope so . Dear, how I wish that now you were next to me , that all was in my dreams . Favorite , and you like my dreams? I can not say whether they like me . It's just wonderful that I can dream , because if I could not do that, then you probably do not love to me and I would not write to me . I so, what is it and you love me . Dear Dave, maybe you would call our love is not real, but not me , because I believe in our love . You know that women are so sensitive , and that they are taken very much to heart . These and they are good. That is why you men , women like us because we bring you happiness. Because we give you that without us you will never get . That's why we created so sensual and vulnerable. But this we only deliver fun to you because we do have the strongest and most invincible. You give us protection. If I'm with you , there is nothing I will never have to worry because you were there with me . Because you're my man and I am your woman .

Dear Dave, here I am dreaming again , but I must go now . I promise you that you will always be in my mind , because I love you and I want you and I were very happy. Believe me, we will be happy , because we 'll be together .

My love , I can not live like this anymore , knowing that you are so far away from me . But I'll wait , because I know what you're doing all that I was happy.

I love you very much and look forward to your response.

Your forever Olga

My dear Olga K.,

I don't want to forget so I will do this here.  http://www.arizonarussiancenter.us/  This is a link I found last night and I think they may have very useful information to help you in your travels.  If it doesn't work, Google Phoenix Arizona Russian club and look for the place on West Peoria Ave.  This is a little funny to me because I lived about a mile and a half away from that place for 8 years and didn't know it was there because I didn't know you.

Thank-you for another beautiful picture.  I have never known a girl as pretty as you.  You will be the joy of my life.

This morning I don't know if I was still asleep or awake, but I imagined that I was working at my computer.  You came up behind me and cupped your hands over my eyes.  You said "Guess who." and then you giggled a laugh I have not yet heard but I'm sure will be joy to my heart.  I said "My kitty cat?."  You said "No. Guess again."  I said "President Obama?" You said "No! Try again."  I said "Then it must be my dear Olga."  And you said "Mr. Lawrence, you win the prize."  And then you leaned forward, your hair brushing the back of my shoulder lightly and very slowly and gently you placed a kiss on my cheek.  Oh to have your kiss as the last thing I remember before I drift off to sleep and to have it greet me when I wake up.  This will be heaven on Earth.

My dear Olga, I will be leaving very soon to go to a Friday morning music jam so this letter is short.  It seems like time is standing still.  The minutes until you will be here seem so much longer.  But soon I hope you will say "David, I know when I will be there with you. It will be..."  But then time will move twice as slow :).

Love may be different for men and women as you said in your letter.  But it is also the same.  We are both happy and then sad and then happy, then sad.  I miss you so my dear Olga.  Don't forget the Russian Club, they have done what you hope to do and they have learned from mistakes.  We all make mistakes, but you in my arms will not be.

I hunger for you,

Dave.

Olga,

Your spirit was with me today, all day.  I went to my two jams and the music was good and satisfying, but many moments, when I was playing my lead banjo (when I play artistically and the focus of the group is upon me ) I would close my eyes and I felt you there.  You are so much in my thoughts that I have only to close my eyes and I feel you with me.

I feel you.  I think we must be getting closer in our minds, in our consciousness.  You are still there on the other side of the Earth, but I feel you.  I have never had such feelings before.  I could never just close my eyes and feel a woman so close to me in spirit.  I hope this is mutual.  I hope we have both succeeded in making a connection so close that you feel me there with you.  This is a wonderful feeling.  It does not come close to how I will feel when you are here in person, but it is the best my life has ever been.  You are remarkable for this feeling you make in me.  Never, never has this happened.  I feel almost as if I am kissing you at this very minute.  How can I feel so close to another person?  How can you do this to me?

I tremble.  I sigh.  I feel and know we are to be together and only time stands between us.  When we embrace it will be something that was supposed to be, written in the future before we were born.  God made you for me and me for you.  We need only make it so.  Do you feel it too, right now on your side of the world?, the feeling we are meant to be, you and I together.

Please understand this is not casual.  This is not superficial.  This is absolutely real to me.  I am serious.  I really do want you here to be my love, nothing less.  I want you.

I wait for your letter.  I don't know how I will sleep, so much I want your letter.  I love you Olga K.  I love you.

Olga,

You spoke of how you are happy when you see there is a letter from me.  There was no letter from you today and like a spoiled child I was sad because you reward me with a letter so regularly.  I only wish to hear that you still love me.  Loving you is easy.  It is as easy as breathing, but we both have problems with trust.  We fear that a love so good as this that we share will be pulled away leaving us alone.

I hope you will tell me that you were too tired to write in English, or you couldn't get to your computer.  I only wish that you give me some reason so I can be reassured that we are still one,  

Your David.

Post Script, PS:  I know that our countries are arguing right now.  This may make it hard for you to get a visa to come to me.  I will understand.  I will wait for you if I have to.  I will wait for so long if I have to, if you truly love me. Do not let bad news make you afraid to write.

Hello , my love Dave! How was your day today? I hope it was wonderful. What were you thinking all day today ? I hope that your thoughts were only of good .

I apologize for not having posted a few days. The reason for this is that I went to visit my grandmother . Helped her with the housework . She has no access to the Internet. Sorry I did not immediately warned . I was very sad that it did not receive a letter from you . In the letter you sent me the link . Thank you very much for it , I will look. Thank you for your compliment. I was pleased to hear from you such wonderful words . My dear , today I visited the travel agency. I learned that to travel to you I need to have an international passport , tourist visa , medical insurance and some other documents . I will try to get money for my work. Once I get the money , I immediately start making all the necessary documents to travel to you, my kitten . And when everything is ready, I will immediately arrive to you. I love you ! I am glad that soon we 'll meet and be together.

My love , I'm happy to receive a letter from you . My love , I love only you and you are my great love . I only love you and you are always in my heart burning . My love , all this time I 'm waiting your letters. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world . You were always my prince who will always protect me . I am very, very happy. My darling, I love only you and you are my big love and light . When we meet , I want to cuddle up to your male breasts , and I would feel very, very good. Because I am with you only feel safe . My love and my joy I want it. I want to stand for a while , clinging to you and feel the warmth from you. I want to kiss you passionately . And I care about the people who will be next . Because I only want to see your beautiful eyes and look only at them. And it will be a great gift for me . I want it more than anything . I want to feel safe . I am very, very happy because now I closed my eyes for a moment and presented it all. And I think it's romantic . My love I know I 'll be with you , and it soothes my soul. Dave My love , I want it , and no one will stop me to say so. Yes, those moments that pass between us , we seem to be very, very long . But when I'm with you , our lives are filled with love and filled with all the colors of the rainbow. I want it all the time when I'm at home , I dream about it. When I'm with you , all my dreams will come true , and then I'll be very happy . Yes , I'm happy because my day started with a good mood , because I got up early in the morning and my heart tells me that I'll be just you. I understand your letter , and I think it was fate speaks to us . Broke out between us a lot of love , and I can not do anything. I'm happy because I always want to smile just you. I think we will be with you very sexy , because the love between us , and we enjoy the love . I always feel sexy to you , because your eyes and your body is very tempting , and I could hardly control his emotions . But when I'm with you, I will give all my love for you , and no one will stop me .

My love , I can not live without you and always think of you . I want you and can not live without it. I want to cuddle up to you and kiss you and you alone . I want it and can not live without you, like a fish out of water. Dave My love , I'm still waiting for this moment. I love only you . My love , I end up writing you , but I will think only of you . I'll be thinking every minute and every second. I really love you and only you. Again, I am sending you lots and lots of hot kisses.

With a large and strong love your forever Olga

Oh Olga!

I have not been well the past few days.  I didn't know why you were not writing, but I feared the worst.  I was afraid I had said something wrong in my letters and you didn't love me anymore.  I actually cried a couple times, you mean so much to me.

Thank-you for your letter!  I have been hating to check my email.  I almost didn't check it just now because I have been so disappointed you weren't there.  I hoped nothing bad had happened to you.  I'm so glad you were with your grandmother and you are still my love.  I feel like a huge and heavy weight has been on top of me, making it hard to breathe.  I feel better already but I am still weak from emotion.  Now that I know this can happen that you can be unable to write, if it happens again I will handle it better. I am so very glad you're ok.  I'm so glad you're still my girl.

I just donated plasma so I will have some money to save for your visit, but I am a little weak and tired always after.  I think I will go lie down and think happy thoughts about when you will take me in your arms and you in mine and the first kiss.

Love,

Dave.

Dear Olga,

I am well again and you are the cure.  My stomach was still in knots when I took my nap, but finally I slept hard. I was not sleeping well before and I think I needed sleep badly.  When I woke I was able to eat which was hard before.  Now I feel good again and am ready to write. Happy to write to you.

My father has been asking that I tell you he is happy for me to have you in my life and he also looks forward to meeting you.  He is trying to plan for you to see many of Arizona's sights and wishes me to ask how long you are thinking to visit us.  Please understand you are welcome as long as you want to stay.  

Northern Arizona is high country and cooler, so I think the Grand Canyon is a nice idea.  Also there is an old hotel called the Grand Canyon hotel for which I was the designer of the restoration.  It is 200 years old and is in a very nice small town where we should visit.  I am welcome to stay there anytime for free because of my work, you too of course.

I don't know if you want to spend a lot of time seeing sights or if you would like to just relax by the pool when it is hot and maybe ride around on the tandem bicycle in the early morning or evening when it is still cool.  If you don't have a swim suit, I know where we can buy them at a reasonable price so don't worry about that.  

I advise you to bring athletic shoes or sneakers, and clothes for the warm weather as the air conditioning is expensive to use and we don't use it except right before bed. Bring nice clothes if you want.  

I like to cook and hope to cook for you, but maybe we can do that together.

I don't think I have asked you if you like dogs.  Just this last weekend I have saved a dog from the pound.  This is where they put unwanted animals to sleep, meaning to sleep for ever.  If you don't like dogs I can do something while you are here and you will not be bothered.  It is a very small dog, about 1 or 2 kilograms.  Let me know.  

I am hoping your Passport and other paperwork you need lets you come soon because it is already getting hot as it usually does in May.  We have already had our first 100 degree day last week.

I feel so much better knowing we are still lovers.  Your letter was full of love and was just what I needed to get my health back.  If I lose you, I will regret it for a long, long time.  I cannot remember being so in love.  I am in love with you, only you my dear Olga.

I wait for you as patiently as I can,

Love,

Dave.

Hello , my love Dave! 

How was your day today? I hope it was wonderful. What were you thinking all day today ? I hope that your thoughts were only of good .

I am pleased to learn that you were worried about me. You said you had a stomach ache , but now passed. I'm glad that you have no more pain . You wrote to me that he had sold his plasma. I 'm glad you want to help me with money for coming to you. But first I will try myself collect the necessary sum of money can I myself have enough money . I wrote to you that a friend advised to go to the agency . My dear , today I visited the travel agency. I learned that to travel to you I need to have an international passport , tourist visa , medical insurance and some other documents . I will try to get money for my work. Once I get the money , I immediately start making all the necessary documents to travel to you, my kitten . And when everything is ready, I will immediately arrive to you. I love you ! I am glad that soon we 'll meet and be together.

My love , I'm happy to receive a letter from you . My love , I love only you and you are my great love . I only love you and you are always in my heart burning . My love , all this time I 'm waiting your letters. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world . You were always my prince who will always protect me . I am very, very happy. My darling, I love only you and you are my big love and light . When we meet , I want to cuddle up to your male breasts , and I would feel very, very good. Because I am with you only feel safe . My love and my joy I want it. I want to stand for a while , clinging to you and feel the warmth from you. I want to kiss you passionately . And I care about the people who will be next . Because I only want to see your beautiful eyes and look only at them. And it will be a great gift for me . I want it more than anything . I want to feel safe . I am very, very happy because now I closed my eyes for a moment and presented it all. And I think it's romantic . My love I know I 'll be with you , and it soothes my soul. My love Dave, I want it, and no one will stop me to say so. Yes, those moments that pass between us , we seem to be very, very long . But when I'm with you , our lives are filled with love and filled with all the colors of the rainbow. I want it all the time when I'm at home , I dream about it. When I'm with you , all my dreams will come true , and then I'll be very happy . Yes , I'm happy because my day started with a good mood , because I got up early in the morning and my heart tells me that I'll be just you. I understand your letter , and I think it was fate speaks to us . Broke out between us a lot of love , and I can not do anything. I'm happy because I always want to smile just you. I think we will be with you very sexy , because the love between us , and we enjoy the love . I always feel sexy to you , because your eyes and your body is very tempting , and I could hardly control his emotions . But when I'm with you, I will give all my love for you , and no one will stop me .

My love , I can not live without you and always think of you . I want you and can not live without it. I want to cuddle up to you and kiss you and you alone . I want it and can not live without you, like a fish out of water. My love Dave, I'm still waiting for this moment. I love only you . My love , I end up writing you , but I will think only of you . I'll be thinking every minute and every second. I really love you and only you. Again, I am sending you lots and lots of hot kisses.

Dear reader, I apologize that I have lost a few communications in this saga, a few of the earliest emails and a couple in this space and time.  

In the previous section #2 I requested Olga's last name.  Although her mother had advised against it, she told me and it is a beautiful name beginning with a 'K'.  

When Olga refers to past writing in the next mail, what happened was that she sent me two nearly identical emails.  Almost no text was changed between the two letters.  The fact that a little text was changed caused me to suspect not that she had posted the same letter twice perhaps fearing it hadn't gone through, but that these are to some extent form letters.  A few questions from my previous email answered, but then a sudden revelation (and reminder) that the beguiling words of love may be boilerplate, copies sent to all the recipients of this authoress. It made me as sick to my gut as when she failed to write for 3 or 4 days.  

I sent her an angry letter and that my saying so meant I'd probably not hear from her again.

My gullibility toward convincing prose betrays my loneliness.  I have and continue to overlook clues which are more obvious upon later review and reflection.

Olga,

I don't know what to do.  I don't know what you are trying to tell me.  You have sent the same letter with minor changes to me twice and so now I am sad again.  Too busy to write?  Just say so.  If you just say 'I love you David, but I have no time to write today'.  I will be happy.  

If you get the time, if this is not almost the end of your letters, please answer the questions I have asked.  I was not asking you to bring money.  Like you said earlier, I don't need money.  I just want love. Respect is nice too.

Dave.

Hi my sweet love Dave!
I am again pleased to receive a letter from you . Your letters warmed my heart . If I do not read your letter , my day already seems drab and boring . Only you and your letters make bright colors in my life.

Excuse me for my past writing. I'm not going to stop our communication . I am pleased to know that you will meet me at the airport . Dave, but today I just have not good news . I talked with the head of my work that if he could help me with the amount for my trip to you. But he said that he could not help me. I thought that I would get the money , decorated all documents and arrive to you. But now I do not even know what to do. I was very upset . I was counting on that money. Yesterday I went to relatives and friends , but no one can help me with this amount of money . I have no idea what to do. I had no idea that all that happens. But I still have one option, where I can get the money . I was advised to go to the bank and take out a loan , but yesterday I did not have time to do it. Today I'm sure I'll go to the bank and try to take out a loan . As soon as I have the money , I immediately start the paperwork. I'll tell you about it .

I love , I love you and I love you madly , his whole being, with all your being and with all my , every cell in your body , every atom of his brain , and every fiber of his soul. I adore you . I adore you.

With your advent of my life filled with meaning , and I could feel how it is necessary for me - to realize that this world is you , and how important it is for me - to live for you. And how did the divinely perfect, deliciously lovely to read your words of love .

Whenever I close my eyes and I feel you close , very close. I hear your breath , your intoxicating smell , feel the warmth of your skin , tenderness and passion of your hands on your lips . For many days, I live in another dimension, somewhere beyond the clouds , where I was able to rise on the wings of your love. For me there is no more due to gravity and the laws of this world no longer have power over me.

Do you believe , my dear , but I do not want to remember anything that happened before you in my life . I do not crave in this life, but your love, you are to me like a breath of cold water in the desert. There is only you and what to do with you . I am now out of the world , I totally get lost in your essence , in the you. I want to rejoice with you when you're doing well , sad, when something goes wrong . I want to be in your blood , in your heart , in your heart , I want you to possess me. Your face , your eyes , your hands , your lips intoxicate me stronger than the intoxicating wine.

I 'm waiting for you . Forward to the supreme hour , when we meet with you. And then will merge two souls, two hearts ... And most likely it has already happened somewhere ... high ... in the universe ... But very soon we'll be together and never part. I promise you that we will be happy . I give you all my love, which is stored in my heart just for you . Now, I'll finish this letter and I will wait for your answer . Remember, I only want to be close to you . I do not need .

Your forever Olga

Olga,

Your letters are so wonderful.  I cherish your words.  They make me feel close to you and only you in my arms can be closer.

I was very concerned that you will consider borrowing money to come to me.  I am sorry to say this, but I think this is not a good idea no matter how much we want to see each other.  Once you owe money, you spend your wages paying interest and the amount you owe never gets smaller.  

What I suggest instead is that you tell me how much you have been told the tickets will cost for your travel and I will search the internet for a better deal.  Tell me which airport you will depart in Russia, how long you will stay and the cost. And I will go to work for you.  You know my darling that I have motivation.  I will turn the internet upside down and shake it to get the best deal to fall out.  Please find out how long it will take to get your paperwork done so that will not keep you from me longer.  We will work this problem my love.  You will be with me, of this I am certain.  I will love you and you will love me.  It will be perfect.

You were with me again last night as I fell asleep and again when I woke up this morning.  I have not gotten you to spend the night yet in my dreams.:)  I guess that will have to wait until you are with me in person.  I think often about how it will be to take long walks with you, to swim with you, to eat meals with you, to love you!  Oh, to love you my Olga, this will be a joy I will never forget.  Your hair is so beautiful and long.  You are so feminine.  I love that. 

I have to go, but I cannot resist writing you and I will write more later.  You are my love, my one love,

Dave.

My dear Olga,

I told my father about your problem to afford air travel and he reminded me something.  Remember I was talking about the Grand Canyon and the Grand Canyon Hotel?  By a coincidence, the same man who owns the hotel works for an airline company and may be able to get us reduced price tickets for your travel.  So it is important that you share with me the information I have requested about your travel plans so we can ask our friend for his help.  Please, the sooner the better so I can hold you close and kiss you so many times.

It is time for me to do my exercises, so I will write again later. 

Love,

Dave.

My sweet Olga,

The reason I was a little angry when you sent nearly the same letter twice is that I read your letters over and over and over.  I love your letters like I love you.   

You mentioned that when we meet we will never be apart and this confuses me.  I have assumed that you wish to visit and then go back home to make arrangements to come here and live with me forever as my wife, but if you wanted to buy a one-way ticket and take the chance you will never want to leave I would take that chance too. Then it would only cost half what it would for a round trip and I will still ask my friend C--- if he can help you pay the smallest amount possible for your airplane ticket.  I hope this does not put pressure on you and make your planning harder.  I want your life and your decisions with me to be easy.  I want what you want, only to be together and hold you in my strong arms and make you feel safe and loved.  I do very much want you to feel safe and loved.

I remember when I didn't know your last name and you were afraid to tell me.  I am thinking I will ask you to trust me again and tell me a phone number and a time when I may call you.  I am hungry to hear the music of your voice in my ear, to hear you say 'I love you David.'  And I can say that I love you and you will hear my voice.  It will probably take me a day or two to arrange international calling on our phone, but then I will call you even if I must wake up in the middle of the night to call when you can answer.  I think this will be a moment almost as magic as when we meet at my airport and I am hugging you and kissing your sweet lips.

I have asked for much in the space of  a few short letters, your closest international airport, if you will stay or just visit, if you will trust me with your phone number and when to call it, if you have a sexy bathing suit :)  I ask these things because you are my brave Olga, because you have trusted me with your full name and I have repeated it only to my father, because you can trust this man who believes in you, who trusts you.

Answer only the questions with which you are comfortable my dearest Olga.  I will try to sleep, excited with anticipation for the answers you will give when I awaken.

Love,

Dave.

Olga,

If you have not yet, don't delay to contact the Russian Center.  I just called and talked to a girl named U--- I think.  She is very nice and her English is understandable, but she definitely speaks Russian. http://www.arizonarussiancenter.us/

I asked her if $540 is a proper price to pay for passports etc. to come to America and she said yes, that was reasonable. 

She also said that this time of the year is a very popular time to travel and rates are higher now.  Maybe October will be a better time to come as I suggested weeks ago.  She said you will want to travel to Moscow to get your international flight.  She also said that international phone rates to call Russia or there to America are very expensive.   But you can call, leave your number and she can call you back very inexpensively:602-684-0294 You would be smarter I think to email first and introduce yourself.  I told her about you and me and she told me how to pronounce your first name. I had it right all along!  I didn't say your last name and I will not without your permission.  She told me airfare runs about $600 each way.  This is consistent with my findings searching the internet.  You can probably take a bus to Moscow and fly from there to London and then direct to Phoenix.

Olga, don't despair.  Don't give up on us because it seems like there is no answer.  When you have a problem, you just work the problem.  Break a big problem up into many small tasks and start in to get them done.

Instead of being sad, I feel like I am becoming smarter and that always feels good.  I know now what I need to do. I need to start working the problem from my end.  I need to get a job to see my dear Olga.  We will do this together, ok?  Are you willing to try my brave Olga?  Do not go into the abyss.  Take my hand and I will help you climb out.

Since international calling is going to be too expensive you don't need to give me your phone number.  

Are you still using your work computer to write to me?   If you have a home computer there may be opportunity to chat even possibly live video chat.  Then you could blow me a kiss.

I love you Olga, don't give up.

Dave.

Hello my dear Dave!

I am pleased to know that you're gonna find a better deal for the purchase of tickets. But I now need to start the paperwork . You wrote me a bad idea to go to the bank. But I've already done it. Dave, I still can not come to his senses . I could not sleep that night. A long time I sat at the window and cried . I cried and could not stop his tears . Because we are still far away from each other. Because I am not able to come to you. My dear, as I have already told you that in order to come to you , I need to make documents : Visa , international passport , medical insurance , and even some of the documents . For all this, I need (540 USD). I thought that I could take the money from the bank to come to you. But when I came to the bank , they refused to issue me a loan. Because my salary is very small. And also , because I'll go outside Russia .

I do not know where I look for such a large sum of money. My dear , I beg you to excuse me for what I was not able to come to you . I am very much to blame for this , in front of you . But I thought that the bank will be able to give me this amount. But they refused me . Now my heart is broken into small particles from severe pain . Because I can not find this amount to come to you . Now I do not know what to do. I wanted so badly to come to you . So we finally met . Could hug each other and kiss . To our dreams , desires finally fulfilled. But in an instant, all my dreams were broken . And I think I 'm going to the big , dark abyss . I do not know what to do . I'm confused . My dear , I once again ask you to forgive me for what I was not able to come to you . But I hope you can understand me. I am ashamed to tell you about it. But I have no other choice. You can help me with this sum ? What do you think about this? Understand that if you can not help me , I can not come to you ....

Olga,

You know I have no job.  My father gets a very small payment of social security.  We are barely able to get by on this money. I am sorry I cannot help.  The $540 is just for papers and insurance?  I am afraid to ask how much is required for airline tickets.

There is no need for blame, my darling. How could you know the amount of money needed until you started to plan your travel?  This is an expensive world we live in.  Every relationship has hard times. Have you noticed, we never fight.  We don't always agree on everything, but we are such good friends who don't argue. 

An old saying:  'What doesn't kill me makes me stronger.'   Hearts that wish to be together will succeed.  Have courage. Think of how much I love you when you need courage.

Will you send me your phone number?  I think hearing your voice and you hearing mine will make us feel better.  Do you not think so?  I have trusted you with my phone number, but I wish to call you so that you can save your money.  Save every kopec and you will have enough money someday.  

I know I have let my impatience show especially in the past week, but in reality I am a very patient person.  I will get a job and we will save our money and I will come to you or you to me.  True lovers are determined people and we will find a way to be together.  

I am sorry your heart is aching.  I feel such pain too, but your letters make the pain go away for a while.  Be strong my loving Olga.  This morning as I awoke I was imagining kissing your beautiful little toes.  Someday this pain will be replaced with joy.

Did I tell you I ran a marathon once in the early spring of 2001?  A marathon is 26.2 miles, 42.2 kilometers.  I was quite a runner then and the first half of the marathon was not hard.  The second half however was not so easy.  This marathon was in Austin, Texas where my daughter lives and we ran together for the first half of the marathon.  Austin is not flat like Phoenix. It is hills and more hills.  After the 16th mile my muscles in my legs began to hurt.  It was funny because running up hill was ok, but running down hill my legs were so sore.  At mile 18 I told my daughter Katie she should not stay with me because I had to run slower.  She asked me, no matter what, do not stop running.  At mile 22 I was so thirsty even though there was water every 2 miles.  But I passed a bar and they had put out free beer for the runners.  This was a mistake because just a small glass of beer was fighting to come up from my stomach the rest of the way.  The last mile was so painful I was crying like a baby at the same time I was running.  Finally it was the last 300 yards and I realized it was my fear of stopping that had made my legs hurt so badly.  I actually began to run faster with the end in sight.  I crossed the finish line after running 5 hours and 20 minutes, 20 minutes behind my daughter.  I tell you now, I have never felt so good in my life as when I crossed the finish line and finally stopped running.  The runner's high that I got was the most wonderful feeling a body can have.

I had trouble walking for the next three days and stairs were very difficult, but I hope I will get in shape to run a marathon again and do it faster.

Olga, this will be our marathon that you and I will run together.  It will be one of the hardest things we have ever done, but when it is over we will have our runner's high of being together after such a long and hard struggle.  After such a struggle, everything else will seem easy and our love will be so much stronger from surviving this marathon.

Courage my brave, brave Olga,

Love,

Dave.

Hi, my dear !

You wrote that you can not help me with money. I was very upset when I found out about this , because now we can not soon see each other . You wrote me that you were going to look for work and asking me what to start saving money. I hope that we will be able to accumulate the required amount in the near future . I was pleased to know that you're going to get a job for the sake of our meeting. You never told me about the fact that you were running a marathon . I would be happy with you to run another marathon. Also, you wrote that rang the Russian center . Tell me , why did you do it ? You do not trust me ? If I had my own computer , I immediately would warn you about this .

How are you? What did you do all day?

I forget about everything and I am writing you a letter ... At this point, nothing and no one can distract me from thinking about you. More than in the whole universe there is none - only the stars , you and me . I know that we are separated by thousands of miles, but when I write , I feel that these words whispered in your ear ... And I know you can hear me ...

You have no idea how dear to me your feelings and your soul ... How do you want to invest in your palm mysterious envelope with radiance miracle , with the smells of flowers clover , mint lake ... I screwed up , imagining how impatiently you open the envelope , and from there fly butterfly , pearl , lemon ... nothing you can understand , and behind the cloak of the already developed butterflies , and overhead - nimbus of rustling and pollen ... and you do not wake up in time, as being claimed by halcyon their transparent wings of your grief ...

I want to see you ! But how soon it will be - now nobody knows ... The important thing is for us to have enough patience to wait for the moment when the heart will jump out of my chest , lips will repeat favorite name . Brain as a clock will make the countdown , as during takeoff spacecraft. Ship, which takes us on a white , soft, fluffy cloud of happiness, where we will chat with his legs hanging down ...

Last night I stood a long time on the waterfront. I so wanted you to be near you to see what I see , so I could hug you , say bored with you to meet the dawn ... I closed my eyes and for a moment that you're near that I hug you, kiss your hair , I see a reflection of red waves , fine track last sunlight in your eyes ... I've looked into the distance, the departing sun. And I knew that in a couple of hours on the shore you can see the same thing . The same sunset, the same sun , and which I wanted to say : " You'll see my favorite - tell him I said hi ! Kiss from me with her red , tender rays of the sunset" ... I look into the distance and I dream that soon I can you hug and kiss . Now I finish my letter . I will wait for your answer .

Your gentle Olga

My dear Olga,

Do not cry because we are not together.  Be happy because we will be together.  Do not despair.  We will be together.  I feel this.  I feel the love in your tears.  I am sorry for your tears.  To think of you crying makes me sad, but at the same time I am happy that you love me so.  I am happy that you hurt to be with me as I hurt.  I have never been so loved by any woman before and you must know that I love you too.  I applied to many jobs today.  I applied to jobs that will pay for you to come to me.  

The sad part is if I get one of these jobs I can help you come here, but every day I will have to leave you and we will be apart while I am at work.  But I will come home to you and we will have all night to say 'I love you and I am yours.'  Have faith my love.  The same God who has given us this wonderful feeling will bring us together and give us a happiness I have never known.

Tomorrow I will visit the Russian Club.  I was going to go to a jam and play my banjo, but you are so much more important than my silly banjo music.  I will meet these people and maybe learn something to help you come to me.  Have faith my dear Olga.  Trust in God my Olga.  We will be together when it is meant to be.  I still hunger for your touch.  You know that will not change if it is a few days or a few months until we are together.  Write me words of love my dear.  Every letter you send makes my love stronger,  makes our first kiss more passionate.  

We have already waited so long to be together.  This says to me that you can be patient too.  You can love me from your side of the world where my morning is your night and your afternoon is before I wake up.  When we finally meet, our clocks will be tangled together.  We will love and sleep the most crazy hours.  I will love this.  I will love you.

Don't be sad my dear Olga.  Don't give up,

Love,

David.

Hello my dear Dave! As warriors doing? Write how you spent your day. I missed you and your letters . Every time I look forward to your response , and always get . I cheered up when I see your letters , your gentle words that I write .

I thought that you do not trust me because you called in that center . I thought you'd want to know about the amount that I write to you . You wrote me that on Wednesday will go to an agency that can help you find a job. I am pleased that you are doing everything possible to ensure that we were able to meet with you . You asked me to find out how much each document separately . Okay, I 'll go to the agency and immediately tell you. I would be glad if you teach me to drive. My love for you will never fade away .

I relieved because you're near me in my mind , the soul. For your sake , I'm ready to do everything. But deep down , I feel sad and hurt, because I'm not with you . Now we are far away and I can not give you a hug , kiss , hugged her . All the time I think about it . I very much miss you in my life. Soon we will be able to meet with you . I look forward to the day we met . I adore you . You're the best and favorite person in my life . I do not want to love and be around so much with anyone but you. Only I need you . Thanks to you , I'm still alive , I know what real love is . I could hardly restrain myself . Because I'm really want to meet you .

It is very difficult to live without you. While I'm not with you , I find it hard to breathe air . You are to me as air. But when I'm with you , then again I can breathe . I think about you , and my cheeks the tears flow . I am very sad . I have dreams in which you 're . When I go to bed in my mind is you. I try to think about you as much as possible , then to see you in my dreams . I heard that if a lot of thinking about the same ,Olga

then this dream in a dream. So I think all the time about you. I have a little quiet that you come to me in a dream. But sorry , that these dreams are not real . Very soon we 'll be together , and all my dreams are real . When in a dream comes the most beautiful moment with you, my sleep is interrupted. I wake up from the noise or from sunlight , and can never know how to finish my dream. I think that if I can not find the end of my sleep with you, it is a sign . Sign that our life with you , happiness, love will never end . We'll be together forever. Even if we die , then another light we still stay together . I'll never let you go. Because I love you so much . My feelings for you are the strongest and most reliable . My love for you will never die. I look forward to seeing you. I will wait for your answer . Your love Olga

My dearest Olga,

I do not always understand your English.  I am always impressed that you do so well.  I have taken many years of Spanish, but I could not write as you do.  You are so wonderful.  That said, I do not understand 'As warriors doing?'  Does that mean we are arguing?  From my side we have not had a first argument.

When I called the Russian Center and asked the price of the paperwork to travel here it was because I don't trust a travel agency to give the lowest price,  not because I don't trust you.  You have never given me a single reason not to trust you. I trust you with all my heart and my happiness for the future.  I cannot trust any more than that.

Another beautiful picture.  You are the prettiest girl in the world, and you write to me!  You make me so happy when I am not sad that we are apart.  I picture you in my arms often.  You are hugging me so hard I feel your love flowing out from you and into me.  When we kiss it feels so right, what was meant to be finally happens.  I also think about the first time we will make love.  I will be so happy when you call out my name for the pleasure I give you.  I imagine you trembling with the warm feeling of my caress.  I think it has been quite a while for you since you've had a man in your life.  I think when you let your passion loose, you will make me the most content man on Earth.  I cannot stop myself to think of these things.  I think of loving you and I feel such joy that I smile even though we are so far apart.  Some day my love, we will kiss away each other's sad tears and then there will be tears of joy.

I think I will do my exercise soon, then I must go to give plasma.  I will write again later so I can share my love with you my dear Olga.

Dave.

My sweet Olga,

Today I was missing you very much.  I made several job applications.  I am trying to make as many as I can every day.  I have never tried this hard before to get a job.  I think Monday I may go to the Maricopa County Hospital where I used to drive ambulance and see if they know of any jobs for the County.  Wish me luck.

Love,

Dave.

My beautiful, gentle Olga,

Why did I call the Russian Center?  To make sure it was still there.  Sometimes a web site is old and the place it represents is no longer in business.  If that was the case I wanted to tell you before you wasted your time.  Do I not trust you?  I have put more trust in you than any woman ever.  I trusted you with my heart when it has been so badly treated before.  I do not understand why you would be upset that I contacted the Russian Center, but there will be things we don't understand about each other.  I forget about it and look to the future.

I hope someday we will go for running together.  I am not in shape for running a marathon.  It took me three months to get ready last time so I know I could do it again.

I wish to look at the ocean or a lake with you.  To sit side by side with my arm around you will be very pleasant.

I'm glad you haven't given up on us with this sad event that we will not see each other soon.  You are so very beautiful and smart to speak English so well.  I miss you every day, every minute I am awake.  God will bring us together when the time is perfect.  Trust.

I will go to a jam now and sing a song for you my dear Olga.  Hum a song for me.  I love you,

Dave.

My Olga,

My day ends on my side of the world, yours begins.  I hope you have a good day.  I imagine you are a very unhappy girl. You were so excited to be going on a vacation in America.  Now, we know this will not happen soon.  This Wednesday I go back to Workforce the agency that will help me get a job.  If I get a good job I should be making $300 to $500 a week.  I need to pay back my father money I have borrowed, but I should still have at least $100 a week I can send to you.  Try to figure out how much you can save per week or per month from your job and you may find we can be just a few months from your travel.  

We have waited this long with pain in our hearts from wanting to be together.  Have hope that I will get a good job and we will make progress you can see and believe.  You wear beautiful clothes in the pictures you send, but maybe you don't need any new clothes until we are together.  I buy only used clothing except for socks and underwear.

Can you get the prices you will have to pay for each document you need?  How much for the passport, the health insurance, the visa and what the other paperwork is and how much it will cost?  That way I can send you money for the passport and you can get that.  We will work our way through the papers you need and then we will find out how much for the airline and work toward that.  Do you believe I want to see you and hold you, kiss you?  We will work for this.  We will be together.  I will teach you how to hit a tennis ball, golf ball and ride a bicycle built for two.   We will sleep, eat and love together.  I will snore just for you :)

Today I went to two jams.  For some reason I was better on the banjo and singing today.  The audience clapped loudly and met with me after the jams to shake my hand.  I think it is because you are with me.  You are in my thoughts, in front of my eyes when I close them.  I want to bring you to these jams with me.  We can go to so many great places and also spend hours at the pool just relaxing and being together.

Can you drive?  I am thinking I can teach you how to drive if you don't yet know, not on the roads, but in a parking lot where it will be safe.  This is allowed by the laws of U.S.  You can teach me Russian.  I don't know what other things you can and will teach me, but we will learn new things from each other.  I am thinking I will teach you to sing and maybe play the banjo.  I have two banjos and I think I am a good teacher for whatever you wish to learn. Most of all I want you to have fun with me.  This will make our love stronger.

Is your love for me still strong, or has this delay hurt us?  My love is stronger because you have shown me you will do whatever it takes for us to be together.  That is very endearing.  You are my girl, my only girl Olga.

Love,

Dave.